What Am I Doing With My Life?


So if you didn’t know, I’m Anastasia, I’m from a small island called Cyprus and have a goal to travel as much as I can!

My hometown Larnaca, Cyprus

This post is just kind of me rambling about how I’ve ended up here and doing what I’m doing, also about taking risks. So, I’ve never really been clear about what I’ve wanted to do, work wise and also by starting my blog/Instagram account/YouTube channel.

I graduated from uni about a year and a half ago with a degree in Film and TV Production, very excited to get my foot in the film/TV industry. Thing is I wasn’t sure where I wanted to do that. After 6 years living in England, and missing Cyprus, I felt I wanted to move on but also England was a great place to start a film/TV career. So I decided to move to London and started applying for jobs. And applying. And applying. I applied for graduate placements, runner jobs, assistant jobs. I lost count of the amount of applications I sent out. A few months passed, it was getting colder and I was stuck in a tiny, damp apartment in a not so great area in London doing nothing. I woke up everyday, with nowhere to go and nothing to do but wait for employers to get back to me. I had a lot of time to think, to think about what I really wanted to do. I realised I was waiting to hear back from jobs I didn’t reeally want. I love creating videos and short films, but I wouldn’t get to do that by working as a runner. Also I was getting a bit depressed waking up everyday with nowhere to go. So I figured I needed a creative outlet and decided to start this travel blog. I had been to Thailand and Morocco that year and was planning a trip to Malaysia to visit my boyfriend. So I thought why not write about my travels. And I loved it! I loved writing about places I’d visited and was getting excited with each new blog post.

Eventually I realised I needed an actual job to pay for London rent, bills and you know food. So I expanded my search and just started applying to anything. Thankfully, I got a job at a small local cafe round the corner from me. And I’m so grateful for the 8 months I spent there. I managed to work up to Assistant Manager and even learned to do the cool latte art. Also, I met so many wonderful people and became more confident in myself. I continued my blog as I was working but as my hours changed and I was working more I was focusing less on my blog and that made me sad. Also I had stopped applying to film/TV jobs realising that I wasn’t sure if that’s what I wanted to do anymore. All I knew is that, by writing about all my travels I saw how much I loved travelling and how much happiness it brings me. So I thought well if it makes me happy I have to chase it, right? I believe you have to choose the things that make you happy, even if there is a big risk involved and it’s scary as hell, because it is.

Cup Tales in North London. Photos by @shellyhazizi

So I started saving as much money as I could as soon as I started working at the cafe. I wasn’t going out much or doing much else other than work and my blog. So any money that didn’t go on bills or food, I saved. Meanwhile I started an Instagram account and Youtube Channel. With my channel I only uploaded 1 video at the time but was too scared to go for it. So I played it ‘safe’ with my blog posts, even though travel videos were what I wanted to do.

By the end of the summer, I decided to move back home to Cyprus. I realised whenever I went back, I felt this sense of relief and peace at being somewhere familiar, so again, I chose what made me happier and living in Cyprus over London made me happier. I quit my job at the cafe and moved, with the intention of putting 100% into content creation for my blog, Instagram and channel. Which I did but probably not as consistently as I hoped. Because at the back of my mind I was still doubting myself, doubting whether I could actually go anywhere with what I was doing or whether I was just wasting my time and money.

I felt the pressure of not having a “proper” job. So many people asking me “What are you doing with your life?” and me not having a proper answer made me anxious. I had all these content ideas in my head but my anxious thoughts held me back from going through with them. And I still have so many anxieties with everything I create and share, but I’m getting better.

Pernera Beach, Protaras, Cyprus

So what’s the point of this post? Still not quite sure πŸ˜… but I just wanted to share what it’s like when you decide to take a risk and not follow a “normal path”. And it is very scary and not great for my anxiety but I do believe it will be worth it. And the truth is I don’t have it all figured out, I haven’t saved enough money to travel full time. But this year, I have managed to travel to Bali and Malaysia and I have a few more trips booked! And I’m just going to keep creating content that makes me happy and most of all that inspires others to travel! I’ve had friends tell me how jealous they are of the places I’ve visited and I know the feeling because when I’m not travelling all I want is to get on a plane! My point is if there is something that makes you happy you have to go for it, at least try. Figure it out as you go along, and even if it fails, well at least you can say you’ve tried! Now go book that trip you’ve been thinking about! Or start saving to go travelling! Just go for it! If I’m kind of doing it then anyone can!

Skiathos, Greece.

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